The Panz: June 2009

Soo, a little autobiography of the past month of my life. Not that you want to know or need to know or care to know.
I quit my job at the school system to have more 'me' time and more time to do auditions in hopes that I'll be booking more gigs in the entertainment world. I do miss the kids that I was working with. Sometimes I have weird dreams about yelling at them because they won't shut up or something but for the most part I had the opportunity to work with some really awesome children.

So the question is - has anything happened since I quit that job. Well yes and no. I'm holding off on joining SAG because 1.) it's a ton of money and 2.) it's probably smarter to hold off on joining until I have a real role in something good. My time will/maybe/should/hopefully come for the right day to join, but for now I'll be union-free, or non-union as the huffy-puffs like to call it.

I'm being sent out by two agents on stuff - one for theatrical and one for modeling. But most of the gigs I'm getting are through self-submissions, which is fine. So many people think that once they have an agent they need to stop self-producing and self-searching for work and let the agent do everything for them...WRONG. I think you need to work double-hard so that the agent knows that you are super-commited and working and getting stuff and they will be more inclined to submit and send you out.

Anyway, a few months back I shot a little NYU short which was fun. Haven't gotten a copy yet as it isn't done being edited. I've been having a number of auditions weekly. Many are for shorts. Today and tomorrow I'm shooting a short. Then next weekend for two days I'm shooting one also. I also booked one that is planned to shoot in late July which I am very excited about. I had/have 3 auditions this week(just got back from one that went well - we'll see what happens) along with filming.
I'm doing so many shorts for a number of reasons:
1)because I can
2)because they're fun
3)I like doing them
4)Good food(mostly)
5)experience
6)To get a reel together. A lot of times people wouldn't be able to get auditions for certain things without a reel that the casting director can see a sample of your work through.

Yeah sometimes it's a pain to commute to NYC and stay with people and do pro-bono work, but I figure that the more I put into something, the more it will pay off. And I'm having fun, so I can't really complain. I'm just very lucky that I have such a support system and good friends and family that help me when I need help.

Everything is about all set for going to the Netherlands in August. Everything except for my mindset - which I'll get over and adapt to I suppose. Hmm..."what will be the hardest part about leaving for the Netherlands?" people ask. I say "missing my cats."